Getting over fighting Beelzebub was tough stuff. Losing, maybe hell, effing yeah a bissel (a little bit) worse. It has already taken up a lot of time, effort, energy and wellness for me, my Mrs., my kinder (kiddo’s) and the wonderful people who were helping me scrimmage. Still, my glass, it stays half-full. If there was an award for, ‘Most Resilient,’ this one would definitely go to me. Knock me down, and I come right back up again. Spunk, integrity, and Energizer Bunny. Pliant, flexible and rebellious. That’s me.
In this latest round of rebound, I am working on being present and mindful. Here are five things that I have noticed in myself
- Currently, I
can go batshit crazyfrustrate easily. I’m aware of this and determined not to take it out on others. But, no lie, I have channeled my inner Mohammed Ali, and I punched the roof of my car when driving this week (technically, I was at a red light). Like texting, no punching and driving. Not at all smart. This helps no one. Not my hand, not the car. Not my emotions.
In Yiddish, they say, Bad temper and anger, they shorten the years. Der ka’as un der tsoren farkirtsen di yoren.
So, I must do more tai chi and learn to meditate. Stat! Plus, the anger is just sadness in disguise.
- Sleep, not so hotsy-totsy. I can fall asleep at the drop of a hat. Staying asleep — a whole other animal! I get up to pee. I try to make my way back into bed. I have to push aside a Little or a Big, who has usurped my precious, yet small mattress real estate
yes they are all in the bed, and I am at the very edge, practically outside the apartment. Reclaim my swatch of the blanket. Find my special neck pillow. By the time I do this, Gatsby, he makes his way over with his waggity tail and kissy, shana punim (face). I finally try to get my head to the pillow and arrange my neck in good fashion. Don’t you know, now my brain, it begins to churn with thoughts and activity. With this, I am hopeful that this Yiddish Proverb holds true:
Kirtser geshlofen, lenger gelebt. Translated to, The less you sleep, the more you get out of life.
A nice positive spin on
frickinginsomnia. Nu? Leave it to Yiddish! Oh, how I love this juicy language!
- If you (and by you, I, of course, mean me) experience a hot flash while blow-drying your hair
as I did today, it feels as though you are sitting in a steam room, grabbing a nice shvitz (sweat), while doing hot yoga (like my Mrs.) inside a convection oven, in August, in Florida. The hair simply will not dry (it re-wets itself from the inside, underneath, out!) I am more than a little concerned — It is quite possible, that me, and me alone — I am responsible for global warming. Forget the cows farting methane. “THIS GIRL IS ON FIRE” is my anthem! She’s just a girl and she’s on fire… Oy vey! (OMG!) How does Alicia Keyes know so much about me? Nu? PS, this was lovely during winter.
A fool doesn’t age and cold water doesn’t spoil. A nar vert nit elter un kalteh vasser vert nit kalyeh.
Yiddish! Beautiful… a phrase for every life moment!
- I am slowly reconnecting with the people that I have knowingly detached from — my own feelings of shame and self-worth caused this silence. And what I have learned this week, a friend is a friend is a friend, as a rose by any other name, would be a rose… If you haven’t heard from me yet, you will. Or if you call, I will answer, and explain the battle that has tied me up.
To fall down, you manage alone but it takes friendly hands to get up. Falen falt men alain, ober oifsuhaiben zikh darf men a hant fun a freind.
Thank you dear friends. ❤
- Nothing, and I mean bupkis (nothing) makes me happier than seeing my family happy and hearing their laughter. Those priceless giggles that stem from deep inside, fill my heart with joy and simultaneous calm. I must crack the code on this one, bottle it and imbibe daily. And if I do? I will share the tonic.
Happy mamas, and an easy upbringing. Freylekhe mames, un a gringe hodevaniye.
So true!
And I continue to move onward! Karma will win in the end. It must! As for resilience, I must figure out the lesson to be learned here. It’s a bit tiring to keep reinventing the wheel.
An ounce of luck is worth more than a pound of gold. Besser a loit mazel aider a funt gold.
I wish you all the best as you move forward, you are the best and deserve only peace, happiness, and love! #EatSleepBlogRT
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Aw shucks! You are making me blush! Thanks, from the bottom of my heart! xox
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If happiness could be bottled… 🙂 I’m a big believer in reflecting often, interesting to read your thoughts #bigpinklink
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Thank you, Jo. Really taking a mental note of what is going on helps me to move forward. Thanks for commenting 😘💕 #bigpinklink
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The sleep. I still wake every two hours and have for ten years. I blame the breastfeeding. Love to you mama 🙂 #marvmondays
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Right back at you, my friend! 😘💕
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It’s true it can be hard to get up alone, let your friends help you up, surround yourself with people who care. Forgive where you can. Accept that you deserve happiness and love, and also accept you and no one else is perfect, we are just perfectly us, flawed, yet beautiful. I think you are awesome!! Good luck getting some sleep, and it’s ok to punch something sometimes xx #mg
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You are so wonderful! Thank you, Mac! 😘💕 your advice is always spot on. 💕💜 #mg Next time, I will punch a pillow if needed! 😉
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yes a pillow would hurt your hand less lol
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It may be just me, but finding posts like this and knowing there are like-minded people from all over the world is comforting. We will defeat the stupid
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Oh, how I hope you are correct! Thank you, so much! Keep believing! 😊😘
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You know, it’s okay to punch something inanimate, just mind your fist. And remember that you’ve got your kiddos and Mrs at your side. #mg
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Yes, learned that the hard way. Thanks Carol. #mg xo
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To keep moving forward is all we can do to save ourselves from falling behind. I just sing to myself ‘Keep on swimming, keep on swimming!’ #triumphanttales
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That is the truth! Thank you, for your comments and your kindness. ❤ #triumphanttales
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Sounds like you have really been through it but are gradually rising up to the surface and reconnecting with life. I hope that things continue to get better and better. Thanks for linking up with the #bigpinklink this week.
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I will fake it till I make it! Today the sun is out, and we are at the start of a long, 3 day weekend. Things must be getting brighter! Thanks so much for hosting the lovely #bigpinklink I so enjoy coming by! xoxo
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As always you are willing to face your feelings even when they’re negative and consider how to turn them into something constructive. I so understand that feeling of being sad about something and it manifesting as anger and sudden explosions. I totally agree that mindfulness is one way to reduce that. Thanks so much for linking up to #EatSleepBlogRT. Zoe and I have decided that it’s not quite working the way we’d like at the moment, so we’re stepping back to reassess and there won’t be any linky for the foreseeable. I hope I will still see you round Twitter though!
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Oh, what a shame. Yes! Let’s stay in touch. And thank you for your very kind words, Zoe. #eatsleepblogRT 😘
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It sounds like you’re keeping positive and moving forward, which is great! Thanks so much for linking this up with #DreamTeam!
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I have to! No choice but to move up. Ty for your comments. #dreamteam
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You are such a wonderful writer. I like to think Karma does win in the end. I believe in it. Thanks for linking up to #GlobalBlogging
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Thank you so much! I believe in karma too! Hope you had a lovely weekend. #globalblogging 😘
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Your determination for positivity in your life is wonderful. The way you can acknowledge your downfalls and know how to rectify them means that only good can come of it for you and your family! Enjoy!
Thanks for sharing this with us at #TriumphantTales. I hope to see you back tomorrow x
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Oh sweetie, thank you so much! I hope you are spot on! 😘 #triumphanttales
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I know those giggles heal the world. Maybe we can line up all the children and the world and do one big giggle to heal the rest of the world? Haha too much? I hope for more peace in your heart, thanks for sharing with #GlobalBlogging!
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Now that sounds like a plan! Count us in! #globalblogging
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